Foolish

The silent night whispered to me,

What hath really happened to me,

You are different now more than ever,

Don't cry my dear,

Please don't,

each drop,

will bring tears to heaven and earth.

20th of December 2009,

I got a wake up call,

from someone that meant the world to me,

He said "moving on slowly i have.."

That really broke me down.

I feel empty now,

I feel all alone,

I feel sorrow,

Now i feel i am back in square one.

What am i supposed to do?

Follow your heart it said,

and never be sad for the outcome,

You know your capabilities,

Because those who don't appreciate you,

will regret it one day..

when it is already too late...

Now...

You are the person,

who lit me up,

You are the person,

who meant the world to me,

You are the person,

i fell in love with,

when i met you here in Malaysia.

Now..

You are a person,

different than before,

You are a person,

who made me feel lost,

You are the person,

That i have not fallen in love with.

Now..

Who are you?

You are different,

You are different,

since you've gone back..

rope

Joke,

Joke,

Joke,

That's how i feel now,

A total joke in your eyes.

You contact,

You don't,

You SMS,

You don't,

Just do as you please.

As if i have no feelings.

You came and you saved me,

Like an angel with a rope,

to salvage me from sorrow,

but then,

You cut me down.

Have you no feelings?

Have you no mercy?

What are you trying to do?

Hate me, love me,

But do with honor,

and have the guts to tell me,

as a man,

and in my face,

WHO AM I TO YOU NOW?

A lie..

As cupid you came,

To save and salvage me,

I thank you,

I appreciate you.

But one thing i ask of and hope from you,

Don't lie to me and be honest,

U barely praise me,

U barely still.

You praise strangers,

Strangers that barely know you,

I don't know if they,

appreciate you like i do,

i hope that they do.

But till then,

Please be yourself,

Stop lying to me,

Don't have to say "i'm cute"

whilst you say that to other people too,

For that makes me feel no different,

Like a clown working in a circus.

here

Here by my side,

an angel,

Here by my side,

the devil,

So where do you belong?

or you choose as you go along?

You have decided,

You have made your decision,

It broke my heart,

but better now than never,

But

you got the best of me,

With the messages,

With all the songs you gave,

Said to wait for you,

to take care of myself,

to await for your return,

was i a fool to you?

were you in a fantasy whilst you were here?

Less contacts or non,

you sometime mysteriously disappear,

leaving me worried,

worried and still worried,

as if i am a heartless statue.

When you appear,

everything sounds normal,

as if nothing happened..

You are happy,

i know you are,

because you said so,

so

be a man,

and say it in my face,

that if you hate or want me to go,

or if you are tired of me,

so that i won't put up my hopes.

don't leave me hanging.....

Mysterious call

Ring, ring..

The phone rang...

Grrrr... Brrr...

The phone vibrated

Grrr... Brrr...

He ran towards it,

Who could it be...

Who could it be...

He asked himself

Hello, who is there?... Hello...

There were silence..

A pin dropped silence...

A silence that gave chills to the bones.

Who could this be?

Who's on the other line?

Silence was still there...

I was curious,

Still curious...

I looked on my phone,

With hope to figure out who might it be..

I froze,

What could this mean?

I heard the phone rang..

Could this be a private number?

Could this be that i have a stalker?

what's happening?

I am confused,

What happened?

Then i realized something,

There was a blank screen...

There were no calls received,

There was actually no one,

My phone did not ring,

My phone did not vibrate,

There was nothing...

Nothing except the awkward silence..

Say what?

You say this,

You say that,

You say sorry,

You say it again,

You say you care,

You say it again,

But how much can you appreciate me,

When reality,

i am no more than a mere grain of salt to you?

Holiday

Will be going to UK from 19th till 25th. Be blogging again if i have time.. i think i'll do.. Take care guys !..xoxo

don't

be horny ! haha...

To an old friend of mine who meant so much to me...

You did it to yourself

Now your all by your self

Acting like you hate me

I left because you made me

Now there's nobody left

To hear your complaining

i'm gone and all you're hearin' is your own

echo!

It started off great

But who was to know

That love that is lost..

You say it's my fault

Ok then i'll go

It's better to know

Now there's nobody to argue with

Cause i'm not home

Don't care who your with..

All night long..

I thought to myself

Why would i stay with you

Realized that i was not the one you wanted...

Tips and tricks !

Ever wonder how could you remove acne from your face in a matter of a day or so?

Try hand sanitizers. Dettol is better. Apply a droplet of sanitizer on your zit and you'll be amazed with the results. PLEASE DON'T WASH YOUR FACE WITH IT or APPLY THE WHOLE BOTTLE ON YOUR FACE as the ingredient contains around 70% alcohol... key word: moderation !

Dry beef kuey tiaw noodles

Yummy, it's from a restaurant at Cap Square. Small and secluded. But this thing was ok.. beef was a bit chewy though. can''t fight taiwan house's dry beef with glass noodles. That's AWESOME !

Stuff crust

Stuff crust made your own toppings pizza from Pizza hut !

found this old picture of foods. I think it was in one utama. not sure the name of the restaurant.. but it was a malay restaurant. Situated along Chilli's

Must have !

T.G.I Friday's 3 for all is a must have...yum yum!

Nasi campur !

Nasi campur / mixed rice anyone? looks awesome

Crispy white bait !

Manhattan Fish Market. They have one of the best fast food seafood eateries i think coz all of their foods like this one is to die for... (Crispy white bait)

Akak kantin !

Kak.. Kopi/teh ais satu ! hahaha

Before and After

You said to me before you go,

To wait for you until you come back.

You said to me before you go,

That you love me.

You said to me before you go,

that we will work things out.

Do you remember after you've gone,

the tears that we shared together while you were here?

You said to me before you go,

i am important to you.

You said to me while you were here,

you had the best time together with me.

You said to me before you go,

to take care of myself and wait for you.

Today you said to me,

To keep my options open and find someone else.

Today you said to me,

You are scared.

Today you said to me,

You feel guilty.

Today you said to me,

You want me to be happy.

Today you said to me,

You might never come back.

Today you said to me,

i should lie to my feelings.

Today you lied to yourself,

Pretending as if you have no feelings.

Today you said to me,

that you are confused.

Tomorrow you might say,

You might have to leave me.

I don't know i don't know,

But for now, i'll try my best to be there for you and for me,

Appreciate the time you being here even you are far,

for tomorrow i'll never know what might happen to us.

So i'll keep praying and hoping for a miracle

even for the fact that my luck might not be on my side....

New Sony Gaming Gadgets...

New PSP GO and PS3 Slim by SOny !!

Afternoon tea at Shangri-La Hotel KL

Had recently visited the ever famous Shangri-La Hotel KL with my sister to savor on the scrumptious afternoon tea for two (for free) , yes it's FREE. To make it even better, X2 servings for free. Thanks to my sister for being their platinum member. Don't worry if you are not a member. All tea time sets are at RM 45 each with either Western or Eastern delights. Enough to be enjoyed by 2 persons. Looks small, but as you munch in time, you'll be full i promise you.

But me and my sis took 2 servings of both Western tea sets.

(We skipped breakfast and lunch)..lol.

This pictures are some of the delightful little devils that you'll get if you order the Western set. Chocolate canapes, Scones, savory sandwiches (salmon,chicken,eggs and cheese) and of course bread and butter pudding... oh my. How's that for starters? It also comes with tea or coffee of your liking.

If you would like to try the eastern set, it'll come with local food fairs. Cucur udang, dim sum and much more. Since we are accustomed to this local dish, me and my sis chose to order the western set instead.

Enjoy if you do wish to try it. Worth every cents !!!

For further inquiries, you can contact the hotel here:

Shangri-La hotel KL

11 Jalan Sultan Ismail

50250 Kuala Lumpur

Malaysia

T: (60 3) 2032 2388

F: (60 3) 2070 1514

Or you can visit their website at:http://www.shangri-la.com/en/property/kualalumpur/shangrila

a misunderstanding...

Confusion is a dangerous friend,

for it will distort realities that you seek,

Follow it not but make amends,

Coz what you heard yesterday,

was me telling you what he said,

that's all.

BUT LET IT NOT GET TO YOU..

Because,

It did not alter nor change me at all,

For i still love you the same not less,

even more now than ever,

i love you, i love you, i love you,

i want you to know that,

Truth is,

i just listened and thats all that happened,

and i am still here and still being me,

and now i'm stronger than ever,

waiting for you,

even for fact that you might not come back...

Hope this clears the air,

for what ever he said yesterday,

did not change in what i believe in..

at all.

I want you to know that...

For you...and non other but U

You said to me to search the atlantis,

For someone that will and might love me,

You said you want someone to care for me,

For you are worried i am alone,

You said to me to keep my options open,

For you feel guilty for not being fair,

You said to me that you aren't asking me to move on,

but look at what you are really uttering,

for it contradicts your heart and you know it,

Now listen here and ponder wisely,

here is what i have to say...

Deny to yourself as you may,

Run away and keep running,

But i will not do that to myself.

To search the atlantis you ask me to,

Alone is my friend and also my enemy,

For being alone is what i have been,

Coz there is nothing i can do,

Been like this for 23 years.

We met by chance and coincidence,

It is after all in Gods work,

Neither do i nor do u,

knew anything that was coming to us,

SO don't feel guilty for this,

coz He is all knowing...

I know my feelings and i won't lie,

even if you ask me to do otherwise.

Influenced by others you shouldn't be easily,

for it is a comment to make us better,

ponder it wisely and ponder it with caution,

for every comments have its dangers,

coz it will wreck you inside out,

so think wisely before reacting,

because what you do shows who u are.

And i want you and you to know,

if things doesn't work,

i'll have no regrets but a new lesson to learn...

Kasih...

credits to my gal pal ADibah: thank u so much...

sebelum bersua

kau tidak kumimpi

kau tidak ku bayangi

entah kenapa di satu detik itu,

kau ku temui,

aku kau dekati...

untuk seketika cuma,

kita bersuka.

untuk seketika cuma,

kita bhagia.

untuk seketika cuma,

belai kasihmu kurasa.

hadir diriku takdirmu berubah

katamu

bersama diriku kau rasa indah

ucapmu

tapi kini kau pergi

aku gelisah

kita terpisah.

realiti kah ucapan sayangmu itu?

realiti kah air mata yg mengalir itu?

maaf.

kau dan aku kini jauh

lembutnya pipimu x lagi dapat kusentuh

biarlah,

biarlah

kasih kita kekal utuh

walau ku tahu hakikat

ia rapuh.

Alarm...

Today i woke up without my alarm,

A sign that i'm happy dispite what's to come,

Will try my best to look forward,

Coz i don't what to know what the future might be,

Call me the man that can't be moved.

reality in dreams

Wondered how,

Wondered why,

What god hath really planned?

Declaration of reality...

Decisions are and hard to make,

What u have might be at stake,

Decisions decisions are hard to make,

Decide u must what makes u happy,

Even if it means without me in it.

Pondering !

Distance is but a good teacher,
Make it not as a reason for excuse,
Your absence is great but have no fear,
Make it not your muse,
As there are other reasons to ponder.